"My Cold CEO Can Feel Everything I Do to His Pen" Chapter 1 — The Pen That Made My Boss Lose Control
Jamie Parker was three minutes late, which, at Sterling Group, apparently qualified as a federal offense.
Alexander Sterling looked up from his tablet as Jamie slipped into the conference room. The CEO wore a charcoal suit and the expression of a man personally offended by the existence of clocks.
“Mr. Parker. What time does this meeting begin?”
“Nine, sir.”
“And what time is it?”
“Nine-oh-three. But in my defense, the elevator—”
“Does the elevator prepare our quarterly forecasts?”
Jamie had learned the company's unwritten hierarchy quickly. Managers could be late if a client called. Directors could be late if traffic was bad. Alexander Sterling could be late because time itself apparently reported to him. Junior coordinators, on the other hand, were expected to teleport.
“No, sir.”
“Then spare us its testimony. Sit down.”
Jamie sat. Across the table, Oliver Chen gave him a sympathetic look. Jamie mouthed, I hate him. Oliver coughed into his fist to hide a laugh.
The presentation began. Alexander dismantled the sales director’s projections with surgical precision, then questioned a proposed campaign until its owner looked ready to resign and become a lighthouse keeper.
Jamie opened his notebook. His usual pen was missing. He remembered the beautiful black-and-gold fountain pen he had found beside the lobby elevator that morning.
He had intended to turn it in. Then Alexander had called an emergency meeting, and Jamie had forgotten everything except his resentment.
The pen was heavier than expected, warm from his pocket, with a tiny silver star engraved near its cap. Jamie clicked it once and wrote: THE KING OF FUN HAS ARRIVED.
Alexander’s gaze moved across the room. “Do you have something to contribute, Parker?”
The conference room smelled of fresh coffee and printer paper. Outside the windows, Manhattan was already loud with taxis and construction. Inside, nobody dared raise a voice above a murmur. Jamie wondered how one man could make a glass-walled room feel like a courtroom.
“Only my undivided attention.”
“An ambitious claim.”
Jamie smiled politely. Under the table, he drew a cartoon of Alexander wearing a crown made of unpaid overtime requests.
As the finance director began explaining margins, Jamie brought the capped pen to his mouth. Thinking about a revised spreadsheet, he caught the end between his teeth.
At the head of the table, Alexander stopped breathing for half a beat.
It was not pain. It was stranger than pain: a sudden, intimate pressure somewhere his expensive suit offered no defense, as though an invisible hand had interrupted the private boundaries of his body.
His fingers tightened around the presentation remote.
“Mr. Sterling?” the finance director asked.
He had spent Sunday rebuilding the forecast after receiving a midnight email containing only three words: Not good enough. There had been no explanation, no guidance, and definitely no smiley face. Jamie had replied with a professionally worded acknowledgment and screamed into a pillow.
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“Continue.”
The word emerged clipped and rough. Alexander swallowed, annoyed by his own voice. He had slept badly. Perhaps the coffee had been too strong. Neither explanation accounted for the impossible sensation.
Jamie frowned at a chart and bit the pen again, harder this time.
Alexander’s remote slipped from his fingers and struck the table.
Every head turned.
“Technical issue,” he said.
Oliver leaned toward Jamie. “Did you see that?”
“Maybe his operating system needs an update,” Jamie whispered.
The strangest part was that Alexander usually had a point. His criticisms were brutal, but they exposed weak assumptions before clients could. Jamie hated that useful quality almost as much as he hated the man's habit of appearing silently behind desks.
Alexander heard the whisper but not the words. His attention was trapped by the sudden, maddening awareness that his body had become unpredictable.
He steadied himself with a slow breath. The feeling vanished.
“Page fourteen,” he ordered.
Jamie made a face. He had prepared page fourteen. Alexander had rejected it twice already, first for lacking ambition, then for being too ambitious.
The man was a walking contradiction in Italian leather.
Jamie pulled the pen from his mouth, looked directly at Alexander, and clicked his tongue in annoyance. He absentmindedly ran the tip of his tongue across the smooth cap while checking whether he had left a tooth mark.
Alexander made a small, involuntary sound.
He stood so abruptly that his chair rolled backward.
“Meeting dismissed.”
Oliver had joined Sterling Group two years earlier and considered himself an expert in surviving its CEO. His advice was always the same: prepare twice, speak once, and never mistake a quiet voice for a gentle mood. Jamie preferred improvisation, which explained their friendship and his frequent trouble.
The finance director blinked. “But we still have the procurement review.”
“Tomorrow.”
“Sir, the board deadline—”
“Everyone. Out. Now.”
Silence fell. Even the air-conditioning seemed to reconsider its career.
Jamie closed his notebook. “Do you want my revised numbers before lunch?”
Alexander stared at him. Jamie had never seen those dark eyes look quite so furious or quite so unfocused.
“Email them,” Alexander said.
“Okay. Should I—”
Jamie had never owned anything as elegant as the fountain pen. His apartment was full of mismatched furniture and mugs from college. The pen looked like it belonged in a locked cabinet, or perhaps in the hand of someone who signed contracts with dramatic flourishes.
“Parker.”
“Leaving.”
The employees filed out, exchanging alarmed looks. Oliver waited until the door shut before grabbing Jamie’s sleeve.
“Did we just witness a medical emergency?”
“Or the first recorded case of a CEO allergic to criticism.”
“You didn't criticize him.”
“I was thinking it very loudly.”
Inside the room, Alexander planted both hands on the table. He counted his breaths and waited for his pulse to settle.
He had negotiated hostile acquisitions, faced shareholders demanding his resignation, and once delivered a speech with a broken wrist. Nothing had prepared him for losing control of his own body in front of twelve employees.
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For one unsettling moment, Alexander considered leaving the meeting without explanation. The idea offended him more than the sensation itself. He had built his reputation on being dependable under pressure. Whatever was happening, he refused to let twelve executives see him frightened.
He called his assistant, Margaret Bell.
“Cancel my eleven o’clock.”
“Are you ill, Mr. Sterling?”
“No.”
“Would you like me to contact Dr. Reeves?”
Alexander looked toward the closed door. “Yes. Privately.”
There was a pause. Margaret had worked for him for seven years and understood that privately meant no calendar entry, no office gossip, and absolutely no questions.
“Of course.”
At his desk downstairs, Jamie discovered the pen wrote beautifully. He used it to correct a chart Alexander had criticized, then crossed out a sarcastic comment before anyone could see it.
Jamie noticed the room's atmosphere changing but misread the cause completely. Perhaps Alexander had finally realized that scheduling three meetings before lunch was cruel. Perhaps the quarterly numbers were worse than expected. A supernatural connection to a borrowed pen did not appear on Jamie's list.
Oliver rolled his chair over. “Where did you get that?”
“Lobby. By the elevator.”
“Looks expensive.”
“Maybe it's a corporate apology gift.”
“Did you ask security?”
“I will after lunch.”
“That's what you said about your expense report last month.”
“Some things require emotional preparation.”
Oliver returned to work. Jamie leaned over the report, pen cap between his teeth again, trying to calculate the impact of a revised client discount.
After the dismissal, the finance director hurried away clutching his laptop like a life raft. Two managers whispered near the elevator. Margaret appeared from nowhere, quietly directing the displaced attendees toward their next appointments. The company kept moving even when its ruler seemed briefly human.
Six floors above him, Alexander had just lifted a glass of water.
The sensation returned.
Water spilled across his immaculate desk. Alexander set the glass down with extraordinary care, as though sudden movement might make the universe misbehave again.
He stared at the wall, jaw rigid.
Somebody, somewhere, was doing something to him. He had no proof, no explanation, and no patience left.
“Whoever you are,” he whispered into the empty office, “don't let me find you.”
Downstairs, Jamie sneezed, wiped his nose, and went back to chewing the pen.
Alexander closed his eyes.
The afternoon was going to be very long.
Jamie considered sending Alexander an email asking whether he was feeling better. Then he imagined the reply: Your concern is not a billable deliverable. He deleted the draft and returned to work, although a small part of him remained genuinely worried.
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